T.N: Un-relate but this song really similar to how Kuzuha feel. Please litsen to it and read the lyrics to have better understanding how Kuzuha feel.
We started to walk calmly and determinedly
With the same scar in our hearts
With our backs to each other
Without looking back
We found out one unchanged thing
But we felt it was changing
And took a step back
Yet another step back afterwards
So as not to be hurt
* I wanted to say “Thank you”
I couldn’t say “Thank you”
Because it’s like “Good-bye for ever”
And too sad
** Maybe I shall be born again to myself some day
And start a journey to seek for you
When I happened to be puzzled a little
By a new and unfamiliar view
Which I must have chosen
The gentle wind just like you
Blew by me
*** I wanted to say “I love you”
I couldn’t say “I love you”
But I feel it was both my biggest lie
And the truth
Even if I’m born again to someone else
I’ll start a journey to seek for you
Edited by: Jae
Chapter 42: Ceremonial bonfire
My body feels light…
I’ve never felt like this before, something like… floating.
Although I felt sad, I lost my beloved mother lost my heart became heavy.
But when my feet kick off the ground, I still feel so light.
I can feel my whole body filled with power.
As I move more and more, the power is overflowing and spreads throughout my body.
Then that power gathers in my lower back and makes another tail.
Not only my tails increase by one, but my physical body also changed as well, like my height, and physical strength, magic power.
Even I become strong, I’m a little concern.
My clothes feel tight and the new tail forces its way through my lower back, ripping a new hole through my clothes.
「Beast-Division, Triplet body」(Kuzuha)
I gather my magic into my tails.
Fill it with magic and under the influence of my spell, those two tails split off from me, instantly become two exact copies of me.
This is a beastkin skill, especially among the fox and cat family’s, a unique skill.
After the tail detaching from me, it transforms and creates a copy of my body with the same skills and abilities.
I become we, three beastkins.
We run through the forest.
Because I already know where to go, it doesn’t take long to reach my “hunting ground”.
It’s the mansion of the lord that I’m aiming for.
The one who tricked and hurt my beloved mother.
「Beat up every human being other than the lord, others me」 (Kuzuha)
「Then I’ll go repay their ‘hospitality」 (Kuzuha’s 1st copy)
「Then I will follow the main body」 (Kuzuha’s 2nd copy)
Both of the bodies spoke those words in the same voice as me, and they went to their respective positions as soon as they finished speaking.
These copied bodies have exactly the same abilities as me, they even have the same thoughts.
Because they are the same as me, we reach mutual understanding in an instant.
One stood at my side, the other went to destroy the window and invaded the mansion.
After that, I and one of my alter ego quickly head into the mansion.
「Okaa-sama’s smell…」(Kuzuha) (Okaa-sama is a respected way to call mother)
My mother’s smell, even from outside the mansion I could feel her magical power
And after entering, the scent became even stronger.
When I enter the mansion, I run along with my alter ego, rushing after that scent.
My mother’s body that Arge-san brought back, was kept as beautiful as if she was just sleeping.
I understand the reason a little, it’s simply because he thinks it’s better to keep my mother’s body that way.
I don’t know what value my mother’s body was, and I don’t want to know.
No matter how great, no matter how wonderful my mother’s body has been kept, I will never forgive him.
I smell Arge-san…
A comfortable smell and a remnant scent of strong magical power.
Even I just meet her, I can’t forget about her
This comfortable smell of Arge-san.
I bet she looked for my mother for me, and I didn’t even thank her properly.
Following the smells of my mother and benefactor, I run along with my alter ego.
Since even opening doors are troublesome, I destroy them as I run, breaking my way through the frames in my impatience, pushing my way through as I follow Arge-sans’ and mother’s smell.
As I passed through several rooms and went down to the basement, there was a pleasant smell and an unpleasant smell.
mother’s scent and Arge-sans’ scent are pleasant.
As for the unpleasant smell, that was mixed in with the two, the smell of violence.
「What the fu@&? fu#%, fu@#$%g!
After everything I tried!
After everything I did!
I worked so hard to kill that fox!
(T.N: Never in my life, I intend to say these vulgar words, but he isn’t me, his word can’t be translated in lighter mean)
The lord looks angry and keeps kicking the armors that are rolling around on the ground as he keeps repeatedly cursing.
While doing so, he seems to be devoting magic power into a venomous circle letting off a purple magic.
Perhaps that magic circle was used to drain up my mother’s magical powers.
Looking at it, I could tell it consumes magic power by draining a target, even if they are running out, a special magic.
Long ago, my mother told me about those kinds of magic circles.
It’s a terrible thing that an infamous Devil thought up.
That magic circle’s given off a very faint light.
Perhaps because my mother, its original power source is gone.
I can faintly feel mother’s magic power leaking from that magic circle.
There’s no doubt that, that man’s magic power is locking it.
「How much time and sacrifice have I devoted to making this thing?
Even though this magic circle is stable, finally stabilized!
but I can’t keep it going like this for long…
Since this happened, I’ll use the daughter!」 (Rott)
「What do you need me for?」(Kuzuha)
He let out a surprised gasp when he heard a voice behind him, he quickly turned around and looked at me.
For a moment he expressed how upset he was, but he immediately distorted his face into something ugly on a face like his, a smile.
「This is perfect, Kuzuha, I can save the trouble of going to the stable. Did you figure out everything and come here?」 (Rott)
「Yes, because I realized everything, I come here」(Kuzuha)
「I don’t know what that monster was thinking…
It doesn’t matter though.
You seem to have come alone.
Foolish child, did you come here to become my next test subject!?」 (Rott)
Has my mother been killed by such a man?
She was deceived by such a horrible man and was used as a tool.
I feel my hair stand on end, as murderous intent blurs my vision.
I hear my heart shouting out to kill this man in front of me.
But, I push down that feeling, then I take a step forward.
My copied body mimics me as I do so.
I am not going to forgive him.
Even so, I- we have to ask questions.
If I don’t know why he did this, I can’t settle my heart.
If I can’t at least find out why he did this, I won’t calm down.
「Why did you deceive Okaa-sama and me?」 (Kuzuha)
「It’s because you were both perfect test subjects!」(Rott)
「Is it because you wanted the power to end the war?」(Kuzuha)
「Oh, that’s right, I should finish that war while I’m at it」(Rott)
「…what’s that supposed to mean?」(Kuzuha)
「I am a genius, so I can’t satisfy myself as lord of such a small piece of land!
Look! Please add your power to this magic circle left by your Okaa-sama’s magical power, I worked on it all for this」(Rott)
Then he raised a wand, that has the same color as our fur.
It is my mother’s power.
I can feel it from that wand.
No doubt, that was made by taking away magic power from my mother.
Magical powers released from the staff, a bright like moving through the surrounding suits of armor.
What he is doing right now is similar to my beast division, he is using my mother’s power to make divisions.
We use magical power of the tail as the nucleus, and manipulate it as an alter ego.
He borrows from our kind of power, then using those armors as the nucleus, he manipulates the armors instead.
「I should be respected more!
I should have a higher rank!
Because I have so many talents and powers
If the kingdom doesn’t want to use me, then I’ll go to Empire.
They’ll treat me well」(Rott)
「…you’re a foolish man, aren’t you?」(Kuzuha)
The desire for self-expression, suffering from an inferiority complex, drunk on ambition.
All I can see are small and ugly emotions in him.
Hearing him, all I see is a hunger for fame under the pretext of peace, no desire for actual peace.
He was merely using those beautiful words as a pretext to hide his dirty intentions from me and my mother.
I wonder why my mother was tricked by such a person.
My mother was intelligent, so she should have figured it out easily.
Is it because my father was a kingdom citizen, did she want to believe the royalty of the kingdom?
Did she think she could stop the war that killed my father and bring peace so that I could live happily?
I don’t understand, and I can’t ask her anymore, so I can only imagine.
Knowing that it’s impossible to ask, forever.
Tears start overflowing, raining down my face without pause.
My feelings are overflowing, and I can’t hold them back.
I feel such murderous intention: hatred and anger.
But beyond that, there is something much more important that I have to do now.
「I will not allow you to use my beloved Okaa-sama’s power for such a thing」(Kuzuha)
「 Don’t worry, I’ll send you to the same place as your Okaa-sama, you do not have to shed tears of sorrow like that!」(Rott)
「Your drunk ravings are getting annoying」(Kuzuha)
I feel my blood boiling in rage, as tears keep flowing down my face, scattering in the wind of a spell as I start using magic.
The armors start moving, walking towards me with an aggressive stance.
I raise my hand up, my alter ego next to me makes mimics my motion.
「Distorted breaking, Double-misery」(Kuzuha + Copy)
Letting out magic at the exact the same quality「overlapping-expression」
This skill was directly taught by my beloved mother, a memento of my mother.
An extremely strong skill, as it’s so strong, mother told me this skill is ‘prohibited’ unless I need to kill.
Powerful winds blast around me, like a natural disaster running through the room.
All the armors are quickly twisted, bent, and broken until they fall apart.
The basement is destroyed, with the only safe place left around me.
Even that magic circle on the floor is shredded, fading away into nothing…
The room has been destroyed, so he can’t do any more research here.
「What’s happening! What is happening!? For a child fox to have such a power!」(Rott)
「You do not understand anything, since you only see and care about yourself」(Kuzuha)
「This kind of magic power can’t even reach my esteemed Okaa-sama’s feet!」(Kuzuha)
「But… this wands magical power was drawn directly out of your Okaa-sama!」(Rott)
With my alter ego, I walk towards him.
Step-by-step I slowly travel toward him, slowly emphasizing my walk.
He started to fear me, waving the wand at me.
I feel magical power concentrating into a spell.
But it’s weak, it’s not force that could extend to my mother’s, or even to my feet.
「Fu, get her! Thunder!」 (Rott)
…I do not avoid it.
I don’t even feel like avoiding it, it’s is too weak.
I could easily block it with my magic power, so I do that.
「This is too weak, did you put my Okaa-sama’s power into that tool? Did you take away my Okaa-sama’s life to make a tool this weak?」(Kuzuha+Copy)
「Do you think our Okaa-sama’s power was really that weak?!」(Kuzuha+Copy)
I have to finish off this man. A man like this shouldn’t exist, no more people will be harmed like us.
I and my mother must be the last.
「Wind-Sickle (Kamaitachi)」 (Kuzuha+Copy)
The spirit magic fulfills my wishes.
The blade of the wind cut off his right shoulder, the wand and his arm rolled onto the scarred ground.
「AH! It hurts!」 (Rott)
「For someone like you, this kind of pain is hardly enough」(Kuzuha)
「Someone as useless as you, expecting praise, gathering achievements, everything you have was probably stolen from others」(Kuzuha)
「You kept on drinking it in, drunk on your own fantasy world, I think it’s time you wake up. Pain’s just the kind of wake up call you deserve」(Kuzuha’ copy)
「I will not save you, I will destroy your ambition.
But don’t worry, I won’t kill you.
I don’t want to become a dirty murderer like you」(Kuzuha)
「Well then, I will be waiting from outside」 (Kuzuha’s Copy)
My alter-ego leaves the basement, carrying ‘it’ away, as it lets out dripping noises.
The magical power I had given that body is abundant, even if I leave her alone.
She’ll keep moving on her own judgment for the entire night.
If the alter ego that I sent out earlier is not enough, I will help her.
If the lord is still noisy, she will punish him more.
Since we share the same mind and can think about the same things.
「It is really an item made from my Okaa-sama’s power, but its power is even weaker than my power」(Kuzuha)
I walk over and pick up the wand sitting by ‘its’ arm. The arm on the side is unpleasant so I throw it away.
I embrace the wand with a nostalgic smell.
This is what mother left in her last moments.
Even if she did not want it.
Even if it was poorly made, I don’t feel a grudge from it, just regret.
For me, it’s the only thing I can feel my mother from.
「…Okaa-sama, I have to go」(Kuzuha)
That is why this wand has to be destroyed.
Such things are not my beloved mother’s true power, it can not fulfill her wish.
I’ll destroy the wand together with my mother’s power left in it.
Please send me a fire so that my feelings will reach my beloved mother.
「O Flower of the heavens, take my Okaa-sama’s soul… to the heaven…
『Blooming!! Higan flowers!』」(Kuzuha) (T.N: see translator corner)
The magic that my mother was the proudest of.
While I was crying, I managed to use it.
I can’t really reproduce the spell, not as mother did, but I can at least mimic it.
Flower blossoms blooming around, burning slowly as they wrap around the room.
Neither the beauty nor the firepower can reach my mother’s level of skill.
If my mother’s flame was a field of flowers covering the shores, then my flame should be a small flower garden.
Still, I used this magic.
『Flower-of-Higan』 is a worthy way to say goodbye, mostly because it’s the magic spell that my mother loved the most.
「…Sayonara, Okaa-sama」(Kuzuha) (T.N: Sayonara = goodbye, but I prefer to use Sayonara, even Wolverine in X-men use it)
Saying goodbye to my mother’s power.
I throw away the wand, and it is swallowed by the flame flowers immediately, disappearing in the wind.
Even the tears on my face dried from the heat as I turn away.
After that, even if I leave and do nothing else, the flame will burn the underground and the mansion to ash.
I buried my mother’s power.
Next, I have to mourn my mother…
Higan Flowers is Red spider lilies that bloom in the underworld. Watch a “Higan Retour” song may give you a better understanding. It’s a really good song.
The first sky of the disappearing seasons Blooming in red and dissipating in white, It’s a colorful ending…
It’s the end. Vanishing senses, a circling flame Ah, observing the seasons in a crooked cage.
White flowers bloom in the real world, Absorbing many words that are blazed into the sky. Just faces without features, White hands sneaking past murmuring backs.
Red spider lilies have bloomed in the present world, Finally burning and quietly singing a wish. Crossing into his sky, silence colors the journey, The scenery is observed from far away.
It’s the end. In the frozen darkness, even the moonlight dies. Ah, the sky I’ve gazed up at is an unknown color.
I believed his days had died forever, A cry my heart goes out to in the wind of this vanished world. I haven’t forgotten fragments of those words, White hands outstretched to murmuring backs.
Red spider lilies have bloomed in the underworld, Burning on an ordinary night and singing tremorously without direction. Continuing toward the end, the tone colors the journey, Memories watched from a great distance.
Swaying, the boat goes forth Swaying, shaking, going somewhere, Too far away, carrying countless memories on board.
In our field of vision we reflect the world Many glances and stories intersect While holding in your heart memories which bloomed profusely in the end, Finally reaching the river bank.
Ah, even tonight is red; red spider lilies Are burning in the underworld, remoroously singing without end, Coloring the terminal end, flowers standing still as if frigid, Your demise is seen.